The demands of my life had been slowly chipping away at my commitment to my new treatment plan over the last 2 weeks. It had gone unnoticed until I crashed and burned this week when the reality of my commitment really sunk in, and the novelty of it wore off. I got so exhausted and weighed down by everything. I got so serious all of a sudden. Like most things after 2 weeks it starts to become a habit, but just as it does, the habit can get boring and if you let the reasons why, get in the way of yourself, you get stuck.
The anticipation of spending 2 weeks away on my treatment, the high of getting those great results, coming back and catching up with friends again, being so committed to a treatment that I knew was working and I needed to keep up - it all got too much. I scheduled too much, instead of scheduling my time properly and lost time for myself in the process.
Then I realised that I created this in the first place. And I wanted this and I chose to take my health on in a way I never had before. I didnt have to. I could go on and live my life with no impact to my social life and free time, without having to give up some of the things i loved to do like dancing and yoga - all for a short term comfort, yet to the detriment of my long term health. But that's not me either.
Then I got a message from a girl with scoliosis from the other side of the world, and she'd read my blog. And it helped her. Then my friend Kirsty in Australia emailed to tell me she had signed up for the marathon. And I was reminded of the support I have all around me. And I contacted a friend that is going through and same treatment as me. And I felt connected again to why I was doing this in the first place. And my week of dog days are over.
Keep going Michelle...Don't be so hard on yourself. We all want to do it all..Sharing and enjoying life with our friends and those we love is part of living well too. Everyday is a new day to begin again. We are in awe of your strength and determination and how while helping yourself you are helping others on their journey too! Carpe Diem. xxo
ReplyDeleteHi Michelle...I totally understand what you're going through. I know how hard it's been for Josie to fit everything in her 12-year-old life, I can't imagine how you're doing it, but of course, you can and will!! We have had many conversations about what are the priorities in her life now. Please e-mail anytime you need to talk. Keep up the good work!! I can still hear your beautiful laugh and your awesome accent!! Sending you our love from Iowa!! Carol
ReplyDeleteHi Michelle! You don't know me, but I just wanted you to know that you and your writings are a great inspiration to me now during my 2 weeks intensive treatment. Today I have been teared up and had a hard day...feel just so exhausted. But I keep on going! It's worth it:)
ReplyDeleteI have tried soooo many different treatments, but none have managed to remove my headache. But today I felt that the headache was gone when I sat in the traction chair!! :) It comes back afterwards, but my doctor tells me that after hard work and maybe some months in traction I will have less headahes during the day.
When I'm thinking of this I get great motivation! I wish you all the best, Michelle! Hope to stay in contact with you and will be continuing reading your blog:) I write a blog too, but it's in norwegian... but you can see some pictures there.
http://skolioseblogg.blogspot.com/
One question...Where did you get your CLEAR treatment?
God bless you!
Greetings from Karina, from Norway! :)
Hi Karina, I just returned to my blog after many years and saw your comment. Sorry I didn't respond sooner. I'd love to know how your scoliosis journey is going. How are you? I received my treatment in Minnesota. I hope to hear from you. Michelle x
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